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Sophie, my precious little bundle of joy:

It sounds like I can't catch up with you and write in here so often. You take up so much of my time in real life that there is no time or energy left for me to write about you here in this online world.
Ok. Where were we?

The first few days and nights were filled with shock, excitement, fear and sleep deprivation for both your dad and I. Baby blues had attacked me in the form of tears and anxiety attacks. I needed to learn how to breast feed you and at the same time teach you how to do that. I was my self recovering from stitches and delivery and at the same time taking care of a needy person, you.

You know what, I wanted to tell you and explain every single thing before, but now I feel that all I went through do not matter now that I have you and you give me so much joy. Maybe because of this, no one ever knows what really mothers go through. There might be scientific or helping books on it available, but none of them can describe the real experience, neither can I.

What matters now is that I love you. And that you have warmed up our home and your presence have given us indescribable joy.

You know when you were born, every one called to wish us happiness and give their congrats for your arrival. What I realized then was that your presence had softened the voice of every one and I could sense that their blessings and words were the most sincere and heartfelt. I think babies have that effect on people. Babies soften and polish people's hearts.

You now smile at two months and 12 days, mostly in the mornings; the most beautiful, endearing, cute smiles ever. You talk to me too. From almost two weeks ago you started talking to me while breastfeeding. I love it when you talk to me.

Your favorite sleeping position is lying down across from my chest, your head on the nuke of my arm, your one arm and legs hanging from the sides. When you are ready to fall asleep, you hide your face in my arms and fall fast into sleep.

When alert, you look carefully all around you, as if examining your surroundings, each time making sure you are in the same safe place called home.